Because this is "the other side of me most don't get..."
She knows better than to make me choose between us or the music, far more than a hobbyist if you're lookin' for somethin' to call it; an enthusiasm, a hustle and all around lifestyle concept. Ups and downs like every other couple has, only difference is I got a whole separate task to connect with fans, provide full access and make sure I'm in the right mindset when I wreck. Every other artist got like 20 love songs and that same amount for when they broke up feelin' dead wrong. Now I'm in the middle dealin' with the riddle. Am I single? Am I taken? Does it really make a difference? If you're here to listen to music then why are you grillin' me? All hours of the night while I'm just tryna sleep. While she's just tryna look at a couple new pics; caught up, curious who I'm really chillin' with...
What we do, where we stay, is like a bad love song that I can't quit playin'. Broken records, tears shed, but still can't get her out of my head. (X2)
Sees the other side of me most don't get; tryna find a common ground while remainin' dedicated. We love, hate, make it work and wait; both so invested in personal goals it escalates. Weigh it out: do we stay, stray, call it quits completely and go our separate ways? Wish I knew, but couldn't call it fairly; all these chick flicks I watch don't prepare me. Could give her roses and my every last possession, but what good does it do? Can't even find a couple minutes. Could never be the one to fit a facade; I been tryin' for too long and didn't get far. Took the chains off, jugglin' chainsaws; brain is in a fog, if I slip again I'll fall hard. Part of bein' independent are the risks taken, that basic, whether or not we face it...
What would you do? I don't know anymore, I'm searchin'. Tired of tryin' to fight, a solution is urgent. Second guessin', I'm stressin' up in the matrix. Desperate for a solution...open to suggestions!
from You're Not Invited...
released December 20, 2013
Written by Rayce
Produced by Wise One
Recorded at One Mic Wreckords
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